Aye! Life has been unbearably hectic. With the school year ending, a sudden increase in neighborhood robberies and the unexpected need for a neighborhood watch, Matthew getting sick, then Jerry getting sick, and now ME getting sick, I just honestly have not had the time to update my blog. Although there has been a lot to talk about. LOL!
Glorious little Matthew decided to pee on my laptop while watching Elmo on youtube.com and that has left me with a lesser convenience of just propping myself next to a screen to share the latest blurbs. Absolutely sucks! BUT, on a brighter note it has helped me focus on the more important, but less tempting duties of home making. So now, I've been forced inspired and motivated to give myself a certain allowance on the computer (yes, I'm addicted to the wonderful world of the internet). Because everything has been so out of the ordinary I haven't really implemented much of this schedule because I'm still adjusting.
While being sick this entire week, I've been making a priority list of what I want done around the house and trying to combine it with what I must do without compromising the time I want to spend with my kids and being overwhelmed. I'm finding a lot of time alone with not the usual crowd of friends that usually squat in my home and rather than fighting for that surrounding I'm engulfing myself in this strange concept of being alone. I've gotten a lot of time to just think about life and where my childrens' lives are headed.
With the many changes happening right now (and believe me when I say there are many changes and maybe one day when I catch my breath I'll share it all with you) I'm pretty happy with where we are right now. I just have to restructure my expectations and listen to my limitations. Like I've said in previous posts I have a temper and I have a serious issue with being "dropped" or "abandoned" but I'm coming to terms with it especially in the "friendship" department. I'm okay with just getting a simple hi or hello and just leaving it at that.
Friends for coffee V. Friends for life
A concept that sounds so easy but in it's own little warped and twisted way difficult to understand. I guess it's one of those great mysteries in life that makes us all individuals.
But I'm happy...
... and that's all that matters as far as I'm concerned. Granted, I have those manic moments in which the earth is crumbling to the ground and I'm about 6 feet beneath the rubble. The chant of "I'm happy" keeps me sane.
Love and Marriage
Jerry and I have been on cloud 9. I love that we're just so comfortable with one another and that we know one another so well that explanations seem to annoy us. We know why we do what we do, but the more we try to explain it to one another it becomes this monotone autonomous repeat of "blah.. blah... blah, blah, BLLAAAAAAAAH!!!" I mean really! If you've been together for more than 5 years, you pretty much have it nailed down and how to cope with it.
We're both very tired and very busy, but we make time for each other - We're happy! Happy with the standards that we put forth between us. It's what works for us... does it need an explanation? I don't think so.
The Nest Egg
Matthew is on a roll! He's speaking in 4 word sentences, mimicking every word and every move we make. He's a character and a love bug. His hugs are getting more and more intense, his wails and cries are getting more deceitful, and the little booger has Jerry and I second guessing our next move.
Daniel's kindergarten orientation was earlier this week and I nearly had a meltdown walking with him at our elementary school's parking lot. I suddenly realized that I will now have two children in elementary school and although I've been secretly counting the days down to when he will be going to school a huge part of me wanted to grab him tight and just hold him... but how uncool would that be???
Brandon is finishing up 2nd grade... CRAZY!!! and in 3 short weeks he'll be flying out to Toronto with his dad. I've been a major pain in the ass because I was hoping his dad would fold and let me have him for the summer. I hate having to say goodbye and this is perhaps the hardest part of being in two separate homes. Being the custodial parent in this situation means giving up vacations and all the great summer memories that one day we'll never get to look back on. I'm hoping that a better arrangement can be made later on, but for now I'll have to let my angel go. So not looking forward to it - did I mention that??? I'll say it again, So not looking forward to it!!!!!!
Well, I've yet 2 floral centerpiece samples to make, an outting with Cynthia and her darling Jamilah, and an evening of complete relaxation with favors (honestly, I enjoy this! it's what makes my day =) So I promise I'll try harder in updating more appropiately.
Thank you for those still religiously reading my blog. Gotta love feedjit... that's right I see you!
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