When I first discussed the option of being a Stay At Home Mom a little over two years ago, I jumped at the opportunity with hopes and aspirations and the false assumption that this was going to be a breeze. I loved the fact that I was going to be home with my children 24/7 and that I wouldn't be as high strung about getting to "work" on time every morning or getting home on time to make a healthy dinner. In fact, this whole world Stay At Home Mom was as enticing to me as a career as a modeling career in Milan would be to a model.
All my life, I really believed that it was my destiny to be a mom. It was my destiny to be at the beck and call of tiny tots for all of my life. Truth is, no one ever mentioned the lack of conversations with adults, the complete and whole responsibility and expectations your family members would have on you. Truth is, I didn't think I was signing up on giving up everything that I was and hoped to be outside of my home for bottles and vacuums.
I decided to start this blog, because I'm a strong believer that this House Wife thing, isn't all bells and whistles, it's about tiresome nights, aching backs, chronic headaches, and guilt. Guilt that I should NOT be complaining about this awesome job of Homemaker.
Don't get me wrong, I still love the idea of being a SAHM, but I'll be the first to admit that this was NOT what I signed up for. So slowly I'm learning, slowly I'm giving and taking what I can, and secretly I have an obsession with the thought of expanding our family though it seems insane to do so right now. I can hardly keep up with my awesome three sons and husband, but I have the optimistic attitude of the bigger the better.
I still have dreams and aspirations, I still would love to conquer the world in a humanitarian way, I still want to finish college. But is it in my future now? So here is my journey in juggling it all... like I said, it's not going to be easy, but you know what? Anything worth fighting for won't ever be easy to obtain.
I am a wife, mother, housekeeper, chauffeur, nurse, psychiatrist, referee, tamer, master of finding things, game player, friend, PTA member, room mom, and believer of miracles. I have many positions, many hats that I wear in this wonderful life of being a Stay At Home Mom, but let's get real... I'm not always happy about scrubbing mounds of crap from my stair way carpet. So let's get real...
I CAN'T BELIEVE I DID THAT, ENTRY #1
- I can't believe I was on a constant run to clean up after my boys all day today. It always seems that after I clean up after them in one room, they're destroying the next. Has NO ONE come up with an invention that can attach to the rears of our children that will automatically clean up after them or prompt them that they should probably pick up that spilled box of cereal from the pantry before Mommy contemplates tabling the idea of breakfast at all?
- I can't believe that I found a molded piece of potato between the cracks of my refrigerator and cabinets. Should I even entertain the ponder of how it even got there? Nah, I'm too tired to think... Just pick it up and throw it away - DONE!
- I can't believe I just spent over a hundred bucks on fruit. Ten years ago, the idea of anything with fruit or vegetables never dawned on me. In fact, french fries satisfied my vegetable fix and cup of orange juice did justice to the necessity of that simple serving of fruit.
- I can't believe that I never thought to look under my table. There should be a yellow ribbon across it with large words ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK... The things I found gummed and smeared beneath my table top is unbelievable.
- I can't believe that I can't sleep until my house is somewhat decent.
So there you have, the wonderful and not so fun things that I found I had to do but smacked a smile on my face while I did it. Women! You have got to be crazed if you think that this is fun at all hours of the day and night, you have to admit there are times where you sit there and say, "are you kidding me?" The daunting tasks of doing repetitive motions every single day for the rest of your life, can be a little discerning. But we have the expectation of loving our jobs. Ahem! No job is ever that great. I do have to say there are days where all I want to do is clean - kind of like I've accepting the fact that this may very well the only thing I do for the rest of my days, sometimes I don't mind at all. But those days where I'm just not feelin' the whole housewife thing, I start to think about broadening my horizons.
I'm always looking for new and interesting things to entertain myself and keep my brain moving. My educational goals are still there but in the mean time, I think experience in delegating and organizing tasks in my own home will be agreat entrance essay to any esteemed university. So here's to my research!
